So yet another month has flown away....aw. What has happened? Hrm. I keep on buying books....it's becoming unhealthy....so many books! I need a new book shelf....I keep on pilimh my books on the floor, lolz. I got new piercings on my ears! They keep getting mild infections though....stupid healing process. But they look pretty and it makes me happy. ^^ Hopefully next yer when my boyfriend gets his first tat I'll get a few more. That'll be hella fun~ Moving along, I've been hanging out with Dani and Jose more which is making me happy. I was feeling so disconnected from the people I love and it was making me a little sad. but now I see them almost every week and it's keeping me really happy~! I even get to see Queran sometimes and that always cheers me up. We just need to find times where all three of us can be happy together.....that won't happen often until I start driving.... or we all take a class at MDC. LOLZ! But yeah, it has really warmed my heart and stuff....all thanks to my little boyfriend who plays soccer and doesn't want me to be alone. He's really a sweetheart. Anything else? Work is the same bull.... I just cn't skip out any days or anything or I won't get insurance....and in this time of economic lows, insurance is a must-have. So I've been working my butt off and hopefully when christmas comes around I can get a few extra hours and pull some overtime to get my insurance. Stupid system. They changed the whole system, it used to be that you only had to work 1000 hours to get insurance. That's good for part-timers like me, because not everyone get 30+ hours like me and they cut hours a lot anyway so for the most part, it worked. Then they changed it! You now have to work 1500 hours to get insurance. Meaning, if you work less than 28 hours a week you won't meet 1500. And they keep cutting people's hours! Luckily they haven't cut mine severely or anything and I'm staying around the 30 hour range so I'm ok, but god. I basically can't take time off. If I do I have the chance of not getting insurance. It's fucking bullshit and it's not fair for the people who only work part-time. But whatever. Sorry, I needed to rant that because it fustrates me.

Moving right along from the angry rant, I like legos. My boyfriend has made me realize this. We keep on doing legos together and it's really fun! I never thought I would like legos so much, but somehow I do. What I really want to do is buy at 15000+ piece set that makes the Batmobile. After that I want to tackle the 30000+piece set of the taj mahal! XD Hours of fun with little blocks.

In other news, I bought a new laptop. It has Vista but I haven't had any issues with it. I guess they fixed the bugs with vista and it's no longer a pain in the ass. yay! XD The only issue I have with the laptop is that the screen is huge. My old screen was like 14", this one is like 15.6". If that doesn't look like a big difference, then you're silly. Because i feel it and it's like...woah. XD. The keys are all in the wrong place compared to what I was used to....and there's a full number pad....it's weird! I haven't used a full keyboard in for ever and it's slightly awkward. When I type I'm always off by one letter. lol.

Anything else in my life? Not really....I miss Jaye. The end.

Creatively? Hrm. I keep drawing. I have this little emo-not so emo-boy-demon-person that I keep on drawing. I want him in an RP outside of Queran....but I'm scared of a bad writer....and I'm a pussy. XD I will eventually request a seme for him...but not just yet. He's fun to draw. Somehow....this little boy who is just this minor person....gets me to draw this elaborate freaking outfits with detail and whatnot.....dammit! Someone like Kae who is a fucking prince doesn't get elaborate outfits...stupid brain.... But yeah, he's fun to draw....just because I don't have to draw his eyes! Lol....bu tI think it makes his character more interesting....or I'm just biased. I wanted to do a Halloween pic....because I mentioned an idea for Queran's Halloween pic. I told her to do her Methhead as a Zombie...lolz! If she did that I would do Iyt as a skeleton....though I've found this task much harder than expected. I know how he's going to look what he's going to wear....the body position isn't definite....it keeps changing on me... and it's rather annoying. I still keep trying to figure out woman proportions and body shapes so I can do that freaking commish....but it's a bit difficult. I've finally become more aware of the differences with female and male body positions and stances and whatnot...but it's just a long process....I feel like a somewhat of a failur to my coworker. He sees that I draw, but I just can't get around to doing that commish. I dissappoint myself and I feel like I dissappoint him. We'll see how it turns out int he end. Anything else to report?

I am struggling with the stupid RPs again. The words are being difficult. I am so out of practice when it comes to writing sex hat it feels awkward again. Ugh... I hate that! We'll see what happens.....I'm trying my best by writing one sentence a day...but I'm forcing it and it's not clear in my head....It may just be the anticipation of writing about Iyt sucking off Ami....lol! no. Otherwise when it comes to my personal writing....I keep thinking of Aubrey. I feel the need to write something, anything in his perspective but it's difficult. He's such a complicated boy. Not just emotionally but with his beliefs too. He acts somewhat like me, free spirit, free of religion...but at the same time he's not that free. He had to learn about Islam and how to e a proper Muslim due to his Father's last will and testament...so he still has those guidelines....one issue, I know jack shit about Islam other thann it's one of the three major religions and that Muslims fascinate me. I would need to research Islam before I can touch the delicacy of Aubrey's mind..... But I promised myself that I would study the bible and christianity (because it is what governs some of my family) before I went on the other religions.....but I really don't want to read the bible. And there's so much to it. The old testament, the new testament...then all the scrolls deemed heresy. I really want to read those as well. and just ugh....I complicate everything....and feel the need to type it apparently. lol.

I just want to open a small window to my mind to those who actually sit down and read my bullshit....and the window has some pretty wiolent winds....lol!

I think I'll end it here before my brain explodes....plus I need to clean.

Much love to all....and like....stuff. Go away.